Neil (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} neil99099) wrote,@ 2006-03-12 05:59:00 |
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I did the orientation this week, Mon, Tuesday and Thursday
On Monday I did some tests that rank my depression and I got this on Tuesday.
1. Fear of abandonment
Involves the concerns that others will leave you stop offering emotion support. Your concern may be based on your fear that they are unreliable, they will die, they may find someone better then you. Or may discover your faults.
2. Difficulty trusting others
The Expectation that others will betray your trust (including hurt, abuse, humiliation, cheating lying, manipulation or taking advantage). This usually involves the perception that the harm is intentional, and may include the sense that you will always end up being cheated or “getting the short end of the stick.”
3. Social Isolation
The feeling that you are isolated from the rest of the world, different from other people, and/or not part of any group or community
4. Disappointment in your accomplishments
The belief that you have failed, are going to fail or your level of achievement (school, career, sports, etc.) is lower then your peers. This often involves beliefs that you are stupid, untalented, less successful then other, etc.
They are my key issues that I have right now…. But really I think there should be more points or that some of the saying in the points are not true in the list, as I am happy with some of the stuff that I do and I do have some good friends that I do trust very well.. But yet when I was in the group thing for getting ready for the 7 well things…. There were about 5 other people and when it was my turn to talk I kind of froze. But in time I did kind talk about my depression. Talking about the past and so on.
On Thursday was the last day for orientation, the day well the people that deals with this group thing talks about the new people that is coming in and they where worry about me that they seen that any time I had to talk I had to put in a lot of effort to talk about my depression and I was under a lot of stress to. So I’m not going to be doing this group thing after all..
The class this week took a lot out of me as I am so tired
The person that was looking after the group is looking for some other type of help for me, One on one, I will do anything that takes to end this depression its going to be hard but I hope one day I can get out of it.
Thanks for reading
Neil
On Monday I did some tests that rank my depression and I got this on Tuesday.
1. Fear of abandonment
Involves the concerns that others will leave you stop offering emotion support. Your concern may be based on your fear that they are unreliable, they will die, they may find someone better then you. Or may discover your faults.
2. Difficulty trusting others
The Expectation that others will betray your trust (including hurt, abuse, humiliation, cheating lying, manipulation or taking advantage). This usually involves the perception that the harm is intentional, and may include the sense that you will always end up being cheated or “getting the short end of the stick.”
3. Social Isolation
The feeling that you are isolated from the rest of the world, different from other people, and/or not part of any group or community
4. Disappointment in your accomplishments
The belief that you have failed, are going to fail or your level of achievement (school, career, sports, etc.) is lower then your peers. This often involves beliefs that you are stupid, untalented, less successful then other, etc.
They are my key issues that I have right now…. But really I think there should be more points or that some of the saying in the points are not true in the list, as I am happy with some of the stuff that I do and I do have some good friends that I do trust very well.. But yet when I was in the group thing for getting ready for the 7 well things…. There were about 5 other people and when it was my turn to talk I kind of froze. But in time I did kind talk about my depression. Talking about the past and so on.
On Thursday was the last day for orientation, the day well the people that deals with this group thing talks about the new people that is coming in and they where worry about me that they seen that any time I had to talk I had to put in a lot of effort to talk about my depression and I was under a lot of stress to. So I’m not going to be doing this group thing after all..
The class this week took a lot out of me as I am so tired
The person that was looking after the group is looking for some other type of help for me, One on one, I will do anything that takes to end this depression its going to be hard but I hope one day I can get out of it.
Thanks for reading
Neil
