Current mood:	confused
Current music:	Take Me Away (by Avril Lavigne)

Holly hell what a ride… and its still going as I don’t think it will stop *screams* Yea stuff happing out the blue getting me very upset, trying to under stand everything that has been going on. As people are piss off with me or that they don’t what to talk to me. Like I rarely don’t get it at all. This…, This Is rely tearing me apart inside it is like I have lost the will to live. Yea been thinking of ending life… But yet I’m still here crying, thinking nonstop as im making myself sick, as I have notices stuff as been going on like I cues this Unknown pain. to the 2 good.. no… very good friends. Like what the hell……

Yea, I have been thinking for a long time on what that could be as It’s could have been form my depression that I am fighting. As I have been talking to all my friends and even here I have talked about it, as I guess the more I talk about it the more I will get upset then I won’t think before I say. I have look at the past logs of chats form start to end, stayed up long long time reading over 356+ logs…… Yea that’s a lot as I do talk a lot online, meet good people. But I have look at all the logs closely see if their was some way some how give me an better idea on what others have been talking about as I did not see anything, wong, Only bad typos I have done….

Yea I… Just have to try to move on in life, as this past few months was like hell for me as it is still going on. As I am trying my best here to work everything out…..